Working Out My Life Sucker

Well it has certainly been a while since I felt "inspired" to journal. I could say I have been too busy, which I have been fairly busy. I could say I have been too tired...but that doesn't apply. I guess it boils down to I have been a blah lately. So many things around me that I allow to bring me down. I find that my optimism seems to be diminishing some these days. Which, in itself is a bit depressing. I have generally always been a pretty "up" person. There have been few other times in my life that I have found that my surroundings and the people that I was surrounded by have generated a "drain" in my attitude. I have always said that "attitude" is a choice and that is ABSOLUTELY true!!! That being said, part of that choice is making sure you remove yourself from "life drainers" in this world. Life drainers suck the positive energy out of every situation and the people around them. I am not sure where my "life sucker" is located....could it be...I am the life sucker for once??? Maybe I have myself totally to blame this time and I don't know how to fix it. I know God is somehow working through this, but it seems like I have been in a "funk" for a while. I know He is waiting on me to give it up to Him to fix, and I keep trying to control it myself. Why do we find it so difficult to let things go?? Imagine it has something to do with the fact that we are afraid of what He will show to us and it won't be how we want it to be resolved. I need a brain re-boot. Start from scratch and more than likely it will clear itself out after the shutdown and reboot.

Prayer: Lord, help me reboot my brain. Help me hear You and be Your light in this world. Your light is bright and shining even in the deepest pit Your light shines. As we head into the week that You were celebrated with Palms and the crucified on the cross, help me find the joy in every day. Not be a life sucker to those around me and be a small beacon of Your light on this world and those around me. You sacrificed all for us and at the very least we can celebrate every day that You give us on this earth.
In Your most awesome and holy name. I love You and I am soooo grateful that You love me even when I am not optimistic, Amen.